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want things to slow down a bit by HJeojeo want things to slow down a bit by HJeojeo
OTL I will draw happier stuff for my journal comic next week.
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I kinda feel like
the whole
..growing up stuff
is happening too fast.

I wish I could..go at a slower pace with everything.
..agh, maybe I'm just really lazy.


but ..yeah I still wish I could do things at my own pace..


like goodness. I barely know what I really wanna do with my life.


...being hobo doesn't sound so bad..
lol just kidding...maybe


the only concrete idea I have for my future is to be able to travel around the world. and draw of course.
The other details will
somehow fill in I guess (?)



...arghdfkj okay honestly
I'm apologetic to my parents for thinking this but:
I wish I could just go to freaking UGA
it's not a bad college (!!)
and I don't really care to get into Emory anymore.
at first the whole idea of going somewhere so elite like that fascinated me.
but I don't think I'm suited for somewhere like that.
xD I'll end up failing or something.

..I really don't care about which college I'll end up going to actually.
I just...wanna get some sort of higher education from somewher/anywhere
than go fly around the world and draw.
that's it.

..uhhhrgd maybe I'm just being selfish.
I have no idea,

I feel like the older I get,
the more confused I am I:<
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InfinityRawrses Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2012
I get that my, family has my life all planed out for me and I don't even know what I want to do. It's like the more they pressure you the littler you want it.
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Evil-Genius27 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Omg I can tooooootally relate! For reals! It's a bit of a relief to know I'm not the only one who's experienced this, tbh. LOL. I think you should pursue whatever it is you find more appealing, cuz I mean, it's *your* life so you should be happy with what you do. :D And personally, I think traveling and drawing sounds like an awesome plan!!
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AndyStarfish Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i know exactly how your feeling man =3=
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shunuko Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012
Oh gosh this is exactly what I've been feeling and getting depressed over :c It does feel like we're growing up so fast and parents push college on us but you have to go at your own pace and people can't push you ya know? This is also really well done too btw man I love your stuff.
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LittleLuxray Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist
Hey. I'm real sorry for comment spamming you, but your work is just mmfff. May I ask, what are your materials? It looks all water color, but I'm also feeling marker. c: Great work as usual though!
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012   General Artist
haha don't say sorry man, rather thank you for taking the time to write out such great comments! : D

this one is actually all watercolor
(and some red ballpoint pen, cause i quickly sketched out everything with a red pen then painted over)
i got my watercolors from walmart (i hope i can try out high quality watercolors one day xD)
the watercolor paper I used was Canson Montval watercolor paper
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LittleLuxray Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist
Thank you very much! I also got my hands on some watercolors today at Target. I need me some water color paper, because I love how they shade and all. And this image, I can relate to so hard. I'm the same right now I suppose, with college and all. I move at my own pace, but my parents decide to give me lectures, and I end up zoning out. D:
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012   General Artist
ahh yess I also really love how watercolors look
just so peaceful and nice =w=

at first I just used my sketchbook paper (also from walmart xD) to watercolor
but i hated how the pages would ..get all rumbly you know?
so i ended up buying some expansive watercolor paper
but tis so worth it
*A* it holds the paint better
and doesnt bleed
it's wonderful!

agh yeah, i know what you mean about parents always lecturing.
and critizing everything you do.
then blaming your friends and your art for not being able to focus on studies
and blaksjdf
xD
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LittleLuxray Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2012  Hobbyist
My goodness, it's like you are a manifestation of someone I've been longing to talk to. I've never heard someone say, "All rumbly" because they don't speak artist. BI I know what you mean exactly... My parents blame Pokémon and my art for me not focusing, yet I'm passing everything. Yeesh.

Then there's saving money for college when I really want to spend money on art supplies, and I've gotta think and all, and get a job soon, and my muse has been murdered. It's all a hassle, but I'm pulling through. And though I just met you, it's people like you that I can talk to without using Outrage. ;u;
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Conde-Hiro Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012
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InkinClear Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
good luck
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Abiigaee Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student General Artist
ooh I felt the exact same way and my parents told me the exact same thing and I was.. confused? idk when it was time to get into a college I just picked something that would allow me to draw and do stuff like that soo.. now I'm in Cinema and Animation and I'm pretty happy so yeah! You should do whatever you want man, It's not worth trying to please your parents XD
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TicklesPickles Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student General Artist
Aww it's okay, some people take a break before going to college to think about what they need/want to do, personally I think you would be a great concept artist if you want to work in art hehe ^^ Or even a comic illustrator, your style just has it's own.. uh, "snazz" (i feel dumb using that word) That is IF you want to do art later on when you really think about it
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Arashi-taichou Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I understand how you feel, completely.
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IDIOTcence Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Girl don't do Emory. My parents and whole family are like "OMG EMORY DO IT GOOD DOCTA" etc but nah man, Emory's is gonna punch your parents' wallet's ovaries and it's gonna hurt like a bitch and signing up for A LOT of scholarships will barely help (plus I don't wanna be a doctor or lawyer). Do UGA (or GSU); I applied there and then we = drawing buddies or some shit ;v;
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ArarYdden Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Sister you're preaching to the choir. Somebody just please stop the world I want to get off.
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siteh Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
wow this is toatlly how i felt and still feel @-@ i'm not ready to step into the world of adulthood and maturity i just wanna be in my own little world and just draw....
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MilkChii Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
It somehow calms me to know I am not the only one.
I often wished I had a big pause button, kinda like the sims you know?
When I played that and one of my 'victims' got all burned down I would pause click all the things that needed to be done and only then hit 'play' again.

I often wish I could do that.

Let me share the wonders of my 'schooling process' lol

So... systems are a little different here. Not going in dept with them -so confusing.-
But lets make it easy in saying you have different levels of difficulty.
For 2 years I worked in the highest level. It wasn't too hard, but I couldn't say I really enjoyed it either.

After 2 years everyone is required to do a test to see if the level and what is required still fits with you. Turned out that instead of learning theory I leaned more towards the practical side. Nothing wrong with that.

BUT that is only taught in the 'lower' settings. There were 7 more people like me, who got the advice to ' go to the lower level'
I myself didn't worry much about it, after all... who cares about levels? But I know a lot of my classmates burst out in tears and cried, because their parents wanted them to study the higher level, in order to get a better job etc etc.

Well, I went to the lower level. Had 2 easy years in which I tried to figure out which direction to go in. Went to a school which taught me how to design etc. and after that went to the higher education.

aka. It only took me...2 years more, to get 4 years more of experience then my old classmates which stayed in the 'high' end of the education.

I guess, what I am trying to say is that, even when roads seem twisted and odd, in the end they sometimes work out better then you hoped for.

And now... more then a year later after my graduation and not getting a job. - crisssssissssss oh gosssshhhhhh- I realized..... why do I want a job so badly? I only need it to pay my basic needs.

Last week I decided to become a freelancer. Something I never thought I would go to.
But somehow... companies are suddenly asking me if I want to freelance.. and well.. heck.. what the hell... let's try this! -shot-

- ugh such a long post without any line or anything in it! FORGIVE ME! :iconcryforeverplz"

- and yes I feel old and confused... especially after getting rejections from supermarkets saying' YOU ARE TOO OLD! FUCK OFF!' LOLOLOL -
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Mi-Chan104 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012
Your description was basically a summary for majority of my last year. Haha ♥

I decided that art was what I wanted to do, and the college I chose was right in my back yard. Because it was so close the students at our High School always looked down on it, but the university itself isn't bad, and actually has one of the better Graphic Design Programs compared to the other state universities. It's cheaper because I can live at home, and I scored an awesome job at one of the Computer Labs on campus.

I doubt my opinion means anything, but I found that it wasn't the name of the college that mattered. What mattered was if it was where I wanted to be. If you find a college that has programs, or anything that you're interested in, go for it!

And know that majority of people have no idea what they want to do with the rest of their lives. You usually (depending on where you are) have two full years of required classes before you even major, and often times students change their minds and pursue something different half way through. haha No one has their life mapped out completely, things change time moves, and the world spins madly on. Best of luck to you, and know no decision you make will be a wrong one... [: ohmygod, I'm sorry this is so long OTL
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mitzuliina Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I know that feel.
With me though I've known for years what I want to do in life, it's just how to get there that's an issue.
And getting into highschool and trying to get into an university/college after that came way too fast when I was trying to manage the school itself ;-;
In general, the whole find a job, pay bills, "don't waste time drawing because you'll die in a hole of starvation", grow up amd what have you is pretty boring. :\
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BIMINNUZ4 Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Student Filmographer
I don't know if you reply all the comments, but I'll be just good if you read this. You are young... but you are just right, all this shit of growing up just came so fast and we never know how that happen. I'm 24 years old... and just now I know what I want. I want draw, so I'm going to do it.

I live on a country where art ( or just draw) don't give you so much money, but I know if I do what I want, what makes me feel happy, I'm going to be ok. I can work at whatever the hell ( you know something like whatever I'm still young). I know what you feel. Is not selfish try to make your dreams come true... It's all you must to do...
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TrickCaster Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
;n; be happy haley! everything works out. (lol look at me OTL I haven't even taken my SAT's yet and I am not that worried... I know everything will be fine) life goes on! You don't have to aim for perfection! Be happyyyyy :3
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
I shall be happy!
i just get stressed for a lil bit whenever my parents give me a lecture about my future and stuff OTL

I think I've given up on being perfect (it's impossibruu)
but my family certainly hasn't ahah :iconheaddeskplz:


...I just..really wish they would let me be..."a failure" if that's what they call it.
Because honestly, THEY'RE the ones who want me to be "succesful" way more than I do.
I know it's naturally a parent's instinct to worry for their child's future and stuff.
But it's not like I'm going to end up on the streets!
I AM going to go to college, and I WILL get a decent job.
So, maybe I'm being selfish, but I kinda feel like it's a bit overdone that how they're pressuring me to go to Emory so much.
I think I really want to go UGA the more I think about it.

I want to take it nice and slow you know, just enjoy the experience as it comes to me.

ksdjf well anyways, I only have...uh, a year left until they can let me go, so YAYY

I guess I'll be grounded till I graduate LOLL
TTATT chelsea, my brother told my parents to not let me buy anything till febuarary.
I'm gonna run out of watercolor paper *sob*
maybe I'll start drawing on trees

their blood shall be my art :iconikilleditplz:
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TrickCaster Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Apply to both UGA and Emory! I think I am going to apply to GA Tech totally not because their colors are black and yellow lolol they have a pretty awesome bionics program 8O

If I find a way I shall get you some watercolor paper 8D and you can keep using their blood on your walls if you want XDD
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
oki dokii

lolol omg is that really your main reason for applying there xD
*7* sounds cool
you can build victoria and me a walking house!

yessssss that'll be awesome fank you
if you can, like if you and victoria ever go to blicks
could you get me the canson Monval watercolor paper, and I'll pay you back : D
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TrickCaster Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Nuuuu that's not my main reason! ....erm...they haz good engineering programzz
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6ooey Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Student General Artist
HNNNGH this was my mom and I last year 8I
I was so stressed out, and deciding which college to go to...
in the end I chose to go to a community college instead OTL|||

But my mom keeps pressuring me to finish early and blah blah blah so I'm very confused and stressed out. ;n;
I just want to get out of this house and have a life ahaaaa
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Darth-Sparrowhawk Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Ha, college. What is that? Where I live "college" was grade eleven and twelve, then you go to University for "higher education". I couldn't afford to go to Uni, (and I still can't), so I had to take certificate courses at a local "technical college". Which is all well and good I guess, I'm qualified to work as a library technician or as a low level IT person, but there's no work in those areas where I am atm. So, even if I furthered those fields by going to Uni, I still wouldn't have anywhere to go to use those skills, and plus I'd have a huge HEX debt.
I feel like such a disappointment to my parents, because all I really want to do is write, and draw and travel, like you. I do feel selfish, but there's nothing wrong with having dreams, and wanting to go after them.
Sorry for the word wall, and I apologise if it didn't make sense. :XD: I'm basically tryin' to say that I know those feels, bro.
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Clockworkquark Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012
Hahaha, I'm at a fairly elite college and I was just talking to a friend about how neither of us knew what we wanted to do and maybe we should just run away and live on a farming commune drawing and writing. I know I'm not really in any position to give advice in life, but drawing and traveling sounds lovely and totally doable. Maybe you can find a college with a good study abroad program, or just take a gap year and travel. (My dad took a gap year in college and traveled southeast asia for months and months and that always seemed cool.) BUT IDK, IDEK MAN.
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HORKEDupfastfood Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
also if you become a hobo lets go dumpster diving together, hell fucking yea
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HORKEDupfastfood Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
man don't try to rush things and just chill, my parents tend to do that to me too and now I feel like I'm going too fast aswell
but it's best to go to whatever college YOU want otherwise you'll only start hating it
but man if you want to be a nomad, then do it!
it will be hard but just do what you feel like c;
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OctoSquiddle Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   Digital Artist
wow you convey such emotion and wonderful body language in your work aaah.
And you watercolour like a pro.
How water colour?
Teach me senpai
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SlueCifer Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow... I am exactly the same, even my decision is 2 years away, this is the time where I have to start thinking about all of this, the pressure from school, my family, myself... I just want to stay 16 or do my own thing, draw and see the world... Sounds amazing, and impossible to achieve. Nice comic, its good to know Im not the only one putting this all off xD
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DirtySeagulls Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
poop

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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
yes
it is all POOP :iconhappyblueplz:
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DirtySeagulls Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
LOL
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snowytaido Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
oh bby let us just be some procrastinatin (hungry) asian artists together :heart:
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
lolololl YYAYYYY XD
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snowytaido Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
our source of food will be tears of pAIN D:< LMAO. jk jk XD probably spam and rice yup :D
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
lololl we'll sell our tears
for income
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snowytaido Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
hahaha. "selling asian tears. it'll bring your IQ up"
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
omg that's so perfect xD
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snowytaido Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
LMAO its like, one liter a day will bring you closer to success. :D

NOO XDD ahahah.
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AnnabelD Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
God, I don't know what to say.

But holy crap, you...live in GA?! o___o
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
YES?
LOL DO YOU AS WELL?
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AnnabelD Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
UH. YES.
Like, right outside of Atlanta.
Welp, if you go to UGA...I guess I'll see you there..??
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
ohmygod
I keep thinking that yer like 21
but i creeped yer smackjeeves profile.
we're
the
same age.
are you aready in college, or gonna go to college next school year, like me?

haha hoosnappp I really wanna go to UGA now xD
what are you gonna study there btw?
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AnnabelD Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
Oh. And I'm going for applied linguistics.
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HJeojeo Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
you like learning languages? If that's what applied linguistics is xD...applying languages..? translator?
i must be close
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AnnabelD Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2012   General Artist
Si seńorita! What are you going for?
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